Day 5

Last night was the first real night of sleep that i have had in a long time. I am feeling better physically but can feel the cravings starting to come back in the mornings, so it is imperative that i spend the first hour of each day in my “meeting’ with youtubers talking about the effects of alcohol and the insanity of myself still wanting to drink. Starting the day off in this way seems to be imperative to tamping down the cravings throughout the day. It really is crazy that i can be sitting here thinking about all the terrible things that alcohol has brought to my life and i STILL want to go grab some Natty’s. This is going to be at least 3 months before i even have any sort of handle on it. and just that makes me nervous to think about.

The fear inside me of “what if” is constant. This is going to literally be living sober only one day at a time.

Things to do today:

• Clean the bathroom

• put away laundry

• Organize/clean bedroom

• organize/clean office

• Finish labs for comptia

• Understand Subnetting