Week 4

I have plenty of things to do today!

This has been by far and away the most difficult few days. im getting cabin fever being here for 3 weeks but its way better than the rehab alternative. still getting in the 60 minutes at least of sobriety content in th morning to start the day. Today is going to suck. the hand to mouth habit is what’s killing me now. either constantly smoking or munching. i cant let that just take the place of Raising a beer to my face. It feels like im on to the next step in the journey. Really finding that gratitude and appreciation for the things that i have is going to be super important. 

I told myself i would not smoke weed until after supper tonight. As im typing this i am doubting wether or not that will happen. So lets break it down; i will not smoke weed this hour. Dont worry about the next hour/minute, just get through this one. I will feel proud of myself when i make it until 8p. It will be worth it. All i have to do is have some discipline, that will make me proud of what i did, which is how it starts. So lets start today. And if i decide not to smoke before bed too then so be it. But i will leave that up to Mike 12 hours from now. 

There you go dummy, dont smoke pot for 12 hours. You will survive i promise, dont be a little bitch.

Things to take advantage of today: get the fuck outside for an hour dummy.

i have legs. appreciate them, use them.

I have paid for career certificates. you have no reason to be bored.

Alternatives to smoking a bowl: (if i can still do any of these activities today, i havent earned the weed this minute, hour, or day)

1 minute cold shower

pushups

plank

squats

curls

watch a motivational video

meditate?

do labs instead of lectures when antsy