Day 19

yesterday was a good day. it was nice to drive and get out of the house. i certainly thought about grabbing some booz but there is just no sense to it. it just like they all say, you have to stay sober one day at a time. We are learning to live sober just one day at a time

i think im at the point where the benefits will plateau for a bit between now and the month mark. Im starting to notice my face not as puffy which is cool and my skin is clearing up nicely This is when the discipline will come in, but the one day at a time is a good way to look at it.

i am starting to really try tto understand step two and three for AA so that i can move to step 4 and 5. i feel like getting those out in the open will really make a difference in the journey.

I wish i knew why i cant sleep through the night but hey, 120 months of drinking every day, i cant expect it to all get better in 20 days. its a lifetime journey, and only a struggle if you look at it that way.