Day 10

Yesterday was another good day. I stopped at hannaford for my pistachios and ended up in the liquor aisle. It was a strange feeling that reminded me how scared i am of having another drink. Having even a dropp of alcohol will send me down the path and i would be right back here in 6 months from now.

I talked to matt a bit about it yesterday but it didnt help that much. Not sure what i expected from him really though. I seem to be at the point where it comes down to personal will in a way.

ive decided that i made the right call in not going to a rehab center. i made it through the “inpatient” week and now i would be an “outpatient” doing the same thing i am now without paying thousands of dollars. Modern podcasts and information makes me think they are more knowlegeable than some of the older therapists using outdated techniques.

I procrastinated on my Comptia yesterday and that didnt feel good at the end of the night so i will not be doing that again.

To Do List:

Nothing crazy today as the insurance claim is all set, just stay sober,, study, and do 30 minutes walking + pushups. I can apply for a job today at some point and get that done early.