Day 11

Yesterday was a strange one. The cravings as soon as i am alone are still really hard. In the past i would have said yea go for it have just two, those two arent going to hurt anything. Now, i am accepting that as true like before (because it is) BUT now i know that those two are just the first two that will re-start me down the path to jail, death or rehab again. That mind shift is helping a lot.

I was crazy moody yesterday, mad at stupid stuff, then depressed, then happy, then sad then motivated then not. it was very strange and not all that enjoyable.

this is the 2nd day shutting the phone off at 11p and got up at 630a, shit, shower, AA, then walk.

To-do:

call allstate about the deductible

i need to put the time into studying. no bones about it

unemployment duties

No weed until 4p