Day 9

Yesterday was as good of a day as it could have been really. I found out that insurance valued my car $3200 more than what i paid for it, so after the deductible i will end up $2200 ahead in the short term. In the long term, i am not sure i will be able to find a car as nice as that scion for the price point im looking at. There are some decent cars in the 4k range. 

As soon as i got the good news i started to get nervous. Every time i get sober and things start going well, i legit feel anxious and start thinking that i will just screw it all up. That actually makes me think that i should go grab a few beers, its like i am more comfortable fucking things up than having them go correct the way they should. 

Today is my second time having access to a vehicle and i have about an hour of driving today with 6 convenience stores on my route. Im nervous that i will stop for beer but i KNOW THAT I WILL NOT DO THAT!

That beer will cost either my life, someone elses life, or $15k out of pocket for rehab, or jail. Jail can sound good for a few days or a week but i need to remember what it feels like in there.

I see myself calling matt or mom or dad today while im driving. 

To-do list:

Finish all applied and live labs

2 hour comprehensive skills exam

Work with the mentor to finish up labs

Get power of attorney and title to copart

Play pool from 230p - 5p