Day 8

Yesterday was the toughest day by far. My biggest trigger to drink is being alone. I feel like i need to take any time i have alone to drink. This goes back to hiding it for the last year. Mom left yesterday and i had to pace around for an hour. I wont lie, this is going to be difficult and i will be leaning on matt and dad once i get back out in the world. 

On top of the cravings, i ended up having a dream where i snuck a beer and got caught, so then i had the choice to get hammered or stop or go to rehab. I chose to get hammered which is concerning but its still only a dream. 

On the plus side, the depression and anxiety isn’t as bad as i expected, maybe because im learning and making progress in networking or because i am happy with the realization that i can never have another drink of alcohol. 

To-Do list:

Finish the applied and live labs. 

Do the practice exam for labs

Go back through module exams and checkpoint exams

Finish up taxes